a month before.

College was promised land.
New beginning.
Looming buildings inside a fenced campus.
People. As far as your eye can see.
Hundreds of niches to try on for size, keep or discard.
Learn about me.
But that isn't what it's shaping up to be.

It's harder to decide, which one.
Hard to make decisions based on
smart parameters
that doesn't include
huge hallways and air conditioned libraries.
It's scarier when you know
what you want but it promises
to be hard, to be gritty
and you can't wait
to sink right into it
but still hesitate,
right before you jump.

What if you don't come up?