learn

I have to learn to write again
Without hiding behind
turns of phrases
that leave room for
misunderstanding.

I have to learn to write again
In full sentences
and chunky unashamed paragraphs
that don't cower from saying
too much.

I will learn to write again
as if I am not afraid
of what you will make
of me and mine.

I will write again of
hurting and anger
but mostly of healing
for that is where I am.

I am.

None of them are honest

The ones who promised to stay lie.

The ones who laugh with me lie.

The ones who put me back after tears crumble me lie

The ones I love lie.

The ones I give leave to ravage over walls I throw up promise to take whatever they want and leave.

They destroy me but

They don't lie.