of want

I want to be raw, unpolished, 

unapologetic for being. 

I want all my edges, all the corners 

that look sharp,

dangerous, on display.

I want you to see the jagged,

the not smooth , not nearly perfect 

surface,

make out each chipped bit, to explore them with

fingertips till you know them

all inside out.

I want you to see me broken, see my insides match

ugly outsides.

I want you to catch me lying, see me

selfish. cruel.

I want you to lose trust and learn to 

trust me again.

I want you to see me bare, see me

open ( wider and wilder).

I want you to see me tamed, given up, despicable, lost. 

I want you to see the worst.

I want you to acknowledge that maybe this

is my best.

and when you've done that, 

I want you to still want me.